So I Missed A Week

Hey everyone!! I hope all has gone well. 

This email will be a little different. It will be honest and full of my testimony. 

I just want to apologize for not sending in an email last week. I wont lie, last week I sadly say with full confidence that I lost my way and why I came on a mission. I lost sight of my purpose and my desire. Through fasting and prayer I am working towards getting back on track. It isn't instant like all things it takes time and diligent Application and attention. I love god and he is why I am here, ever since I left Chicago I feel that my desire has dwindled compared to how it was in Chicago. Now that was a long time ago and I have had more than enough time to have fixed things up but I just simply didn't want to. 

I have wasted a lot of time on my mission, I really have and i'm not happy with it. Not to say I haven't grown and become a better Person on my mission but I think I have flatlined and halted my Personal Progression. I still have about 8 months left on the mission to make it up and make this mission even more worth it. 

I love the mission and I woudnt trade any of my experiences for anything in the world. I love even the really hard bad parts. I have come a long way compared to "Dutch v.1" I have a desire to become a desiple of jesus christ, the son of God who loves and loves. My mistakes and shortcomings cant and wont define me if I do my part in the grand scheme of things. 

I love you all, I hope you all have an awesome week. 

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